LONELINESS— Perpetual Outcast. Electro Acoustic Folk/Blues (Poetry Set to Music)

LONELINESS— Perpetual Outcast. Electro Acoustic Folk/Blues (Poetry Set to Music) This is the detachment. The deep dark detachment. I think in first principles, physics so the idea of reality is intrinsically vague and fuzzy. Never fully resolved and so another common motif in my work. This track features a soulful singer-songwriter vibe, haunting female vocals, and heavy acoustic folk/blues instrumentation. THE LYRICS If you are your deeds, You can touch the earth. If you are your flesh, You can find your worth. Touch the outside world, Touch another hand. But you walk alone, If you understand. If you are your mind, If you look within. You are cast away, Where the walls begin. Left in solitude, Bound in silent chains. In a lonely space, Where the dark remains. (Chorus ) Look into my eyes, See the beast inside. Listen to my words, Where the echoes hide. Touch this brutal flesh, Feel the heavy bone... But the mind is trapped, Condemned to stay alone. Secondhand thoughts, Falling from my tongue. Songs of old regret, That are never sung. Just an empty shell, Moving through the grey. While the inner world, Slowly drifts away. (Bridge) But somewhere deep, Where the shadows grow. In a hidden place, That they never know. My soul cries out, In a quiet space. Tormented mind, In a lawless place. (Chorus) Look into my eyes, See the beast inside. Listen to my words, Where the echoes hide. Touch this brutal flesh, Feel the heavy bone... But the mind is trapped, Condemned to stay alone. So tell me your dreams. Tell me your fears. The agonies borne, Through the heavy years. Convince me they’re real, Break the frozen stone... That I might feel... Less alone. At last... Less alone. THE STORY BEHIND THE WORDS I wrote a lot of my poetry nearly 40 years ago, during my 20s. At the time I was completely unaware of the reason why I felt the way I did. It wasn’t until September 2024, at the age of 64, that I was finally diagnosed with Asperger's/Autism. Looking back, the poetry was my undiagnosed mind trying to process the intense isolation, the sensory weight, and the profound feeling of WTF! Decades later, I have finally brought these words to life. This is what it felt like to navigate a world that made no sense to me long before I had the words to explain why. HOW THIS TRACK WAS MADE The Writing: All of the poetry and lyrics are my own. I created the lyrics for this song mostly by deconstructing my original poetry. The Music: Suno.com was used for the vocals and music. I've tried to play most instruments over the years with zero success. Plus, I'm tone-deaf and wouldn't subject my worst enemy to my singing! The Visuals: Vizzy.io was used for the video visualisation. I didn't want flashy graphics, just something simple to keep the focus on the mood. I hope it works. LETS CONNECT Thank you for listening. If this creative expression resonates with your own journey of self-discovery, late adult autism diagnosis, or neurodivergence, please leave a comment—I'd love to hear your story. Any suggestions you might have for how I might improve the channel or the visuals are always welcome.