Poem: LONELINESS - The Solitary Mind (Dark Ambient Spoken Word)

Poem: LONELINESS - The Solitude of the Mind (Dark Ambient Spoken Word) An exploration of the profound isolation that occurs when you exist entirely within your own mind. Written from an alexithymic and late-diagnosed autistic perspective, "Lonely" dissects the barrier between physical connection and mental solitude. The poem frames the human body as merely "the organs of the beast" and spoken language as "secondhand thoughts," leaving the core self trapped behind a wall of pure intellect, pleading for another to prove the reality of their own internal struggles simply to break the spell of eternal isolation. LYRICS LONELINESS If you feel you are your deeds, You can touch the world. If you feel you are your body, You can touch another. But if you feel you are your mind, You’re condemned to eternal solitude. Look into my eyes, And see only the organs of the beast. Listen to my words, And hear only secondhand thoughts. Touch me, And feel the brutal flesh of my existence. But somewhere, My soul cries out in torment. So tell me of your dreams, your fears, Tell me of the agonies of YOUR existence. Convince me of their reality, That I might feel less alone. THE STORY BEHIND THE WORDS My work is an exploration of the perceptual barriers between minds and between mind and reality, written from an undiagnosed neurodivergent perspective but dedicated to anyone who has ever felt disconnected, stranded in their own thoughts. I wrote a lot of my poetry nearly 40 years ago, during my 20s & 30s. At the time I was completely unaware of the reason why I felt the way I did. It wasn’t until September 2024, at the age of 64, that I was finally diagnosed with Asperger's/Autism. Looking back, the poetry was my undiagnosed mind trying to process the intense isolation, the sensory weight, and the profound feeling of WTF! Decades later, I have finally brought these words to life. This is what it felt like to navigate a world that made so little sense to me long before I had the words to explain why. I can only hope that it helps you on your own path to self-discovery. HOW THIS TRACK WAS MADE The Writing: All of the poetry and lyrics are my own. I create the lyrics for the songs by deconstructing my original poetry. The Music: Yes I use AI, I have to. My poetry has sat dormant for decades because of an inability to express it in the way I wanted. I use it as a tool, it's my canvas and my brushes and I hope you see it that way. Suno.com was used for the vocals and music. I've tried to play most instruments over the years with zero success. Plus, I'm tone-deaf and wouldn't subject my worst enemy to my singing! The Visuals: Vizzy.io was used for the video visualisation. It allows me to handcraft them to suit the mood of my work. I didn't want flashy animated AI graphics, just something simple to keep the focus on the mood. I hope it works. LETS CONNECT Thank you for listening. If this creative expression resonates with your own journey of self-discovery, late adult autism diagnosis, or neurodivergence, please leave a comment—I'd love to hear your story. Any suggestions you might have for how I might improve the channel or the visuals are always welcome.