rebirth - pillowcase warriors

track 1 from "new friends" https://pillowcasewarriors.bandcamp.c... https://open.spotify.com/album/766AzW...   / new-friends   when i wake up i fall asleep it's hard to believe that i slept at all given the state of my ignorance to patterns and regiments that i know will keep me alive there was no dead zone and five more alarms might get me awake so there's no harm in trying but trying hard hurts me when all that i want is for want to go away (the status quo is here to stay) eyes closed and still awake a feeling i cant shake ears hearing words nobody said nerves sending pain signs to my head phone rings by my side texts still not replied curtains undrawn, you're still okay turn to me, ask "how was my day" "still on for tonight?" fire burns but no light eyes piercing mine make for escape will you come over to my place hope you think it's fine if i'm never on time go on alone, i'll meet you there there is no friendship to repair when i wake up i fall asleep it's where we can meet (without the threat of) friends and a family rummaging and handling all of our business that we've tried so hard to regress if you're a nightmare then why do i rest as sweetly and softly as i did on your chest my consciousness is fading and what if i wake up? it's been so long since i... and all that i want is all that i need there's no rebirth there's no disease there's only you and i'm in the distance admiring the truth dark void where you once stood fire needs some more wood friends making friends need symbols of how close they were when you showed up truth falls from the sky nothing to deny everything's up for all to see leave ahead people you don't need they don't need you back no group left intact all that we are only for now 2 more years and we'll have tapped out car horn brings me back flags raised at half-mast summer will make change in my life said last year, but now there's less time when i woke up i fell back asleep to where we would meet (without the threat of) making a family climb the stairs carefully the kid sleeps upstairs and you can't let it ever see if it's a dream and it's not a bad one then why can't i sleep when you grazed my laptop it fell to the floor and suddenly you all made sense (but what do you want?) all that i want is all that there is i'll never die i'll never live send me away 5 days a week and we'll never talk again but i'm waking up and i don't mean the pixar film up and i don't mean the door you slammed shut and i can't say i'm out of this rut that i put me in when i get up i get back down it's where i'll be found (without the eyes of) ra and storm watching me fulfilling a prophecy written by authors who have no respect for the truth herodotus died here and you want a truce take 20 steps backward and i'll take one to you there's no eclipse smaller than the last one that you'll see (to you, at least) all that i want is all that you are and all that i'm not is not off too far so lets go to bed there i am safe from what's not in my head i'll go where you take us but please not too far i think that i like her and five more alarms won't get me her number but maybe you can just tell me when i lie here it's all in my head now, my whole life is ahead of me how, am i meant to go get on my bike go to school, go to work, without you, live and die? well i guess i'm not one for goodbyes