lullaby for two - pillowcase warriors

track 6 from "new friends" https://pillowcasewarriors.bandcamp.c... https://open.spotify.com/album/766AzW...   / new-friends   (I.) blind in both eyes i find myself watching the time pass me by a clock with no hands makes no chime wake up late but gracefully, make no mistake i don't hate i give myself more than i take take from who? i find myself taking from you it's like 2:00 we're all out of people to lose i don't sleep i watch hivemind clips on repeat i don't eat i count-chew the fence-hopping sheep the clock just wont stop a stomach in knots has no trouble digesting a heart broke in two beats like any me or you it's true we keep living, no choice but to be here we need here... but what if here is moving far away (II.) sorry to all my family and friends i've decided to stay in winter once again 'cause i tried and i tried and it wasn't enough our lives were of the same stuff they'd always been and the only thing left keeping me up was the midnight wind no offers to rescind... 'cause.... the children, women, men, they never escape but we could be first to leave town look back later but i don't know how to living in the present instead of the past you said the future doesn't look bright looks like you've proved yourself half right everyone is empty if you look close enough don't pretend you've struggled isn't being alive enough windows, doors, and waves would make you lurch at just the thought but they're not... and i'm sorry... but will i ever end? i find myself approaching a ledge of the edge of my bed i'm clinging onto everything you said is my life a disguise all masked by death and starry eyes and still, i'm entrenched in a lie that all of this had happened by your side no we don't ever end and yet i'm still approaching a head am i sinking instead the path i flew can't get me out of bed is my life on repeat i wake, i sleep, i drink, i eat, i weep can we keep it discrete? the lead inside my eyes melts out with heat