girl vs unemployment: just me and my ineffectual bsc against the world 🌍 👩🏻‍💻

hi, this is yet another vlog documenting the job hunt!! i spent a lot of time working on this one because there were so many moving parts. i was trying to make it more vlog style like how my study vlogs used to be (bc i miss that era) but then half of it is spent talking about how i track the few dollars in my bank account?? actually ☝️ i'm not going to self deprecate myself any further. i cut out most of the the parts of when i'm just clowning on myself for having the audacity to think i'm qualified enough to talk about how i track my expenses and it was genuinely a third of the whole thing 😭 it was actually alarming, i was like why cannot i just let myself live tf i really am my biggest opp 😔 i have a lot to say in this lil journal entry but alas i have to head to work, i barely just scraped by posting this before i had to leave but victory!! i finished on time!! i shall finish this after work:) ^and i’m going to share the excel i made as well! incase you’d like to use it or want a start off point. i still get edit requests from the last excel i shared so i thought it might be useful for some:) edit: here is the link to my expense tracker that i used in this video! https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/... 🫶🏻 you can't edit the different selections of the drop-down menu bc it's on view mode, but if you go ➡️ file ➡️ make a copy, you can make it your own:) apologies for the poor audio quality in the intro! i was trying to get this video published today before work and i forgot my microphone so just recorded it on my phone in the cafe bathroom oop i'm worried the attitude of this video is quite negative 😭 i think it's because it's when i am feeling the struggle, that i decide to document how i'm feeling. when i'm doing well or am happy, i forget to, or don't have the urge to pull out my phone. so i want you to know that although the struggle is real! i'm happy and healthy and that's all i can really ask for:) i'm quite proud of this one, i spent a good chunk of this week working on it and put a lot of heart into it. i really cannot express how excited i am for this ipad, i know i've really harped on about it, but it's been so long since i've done something with my hands besides typing. i used to love drawing as a kid, and what i'm capable of doing with my hands has always been important to me. but as i got older, and the breadth of leisurely options expanded, screen time pushed anything remotely artistic to the side. i'm a little rusty with my hands now, as i think you can tell by my chicken scratch doodles 😭 but the potential to practice is there now! and i get to incorporate it into something i love to do anyways, which is make these little videos. i forgot how rewarding learning new hard skills actually is. it's such fulfilling feeling, and i think it's because starting from zero at something is so difficult and especially with my attention span 😭 it's so hard to continue sticking to something that i am failing tremendously at, when the temptation of scrolling on my phone is right there and so easy! and so brainless! so when i do stick to that thing, and i inevitably learn something new and improve, i'm like, heck yeah that is time and knowledge no one can take away from me. Music by You Me And The Piano - Melancholy - https://thmatc.co/?l=C6283440 Music by Lyle Kam - all we do is talk - https://thmatc.co/?l=C2C2F38B music: @prodchibi