girl vs unemployment: post grad and feeling perpetually underqualified

hi!! this is the next little vlog documenting me trying to figure out what i want to do after graduation, this one depicts two interviews while i try to secure The Big Girl job. (someone capitalized it in an email to me, and i loved how it sounded. so i cannot take credit for said capitalization. i really enjoy the idea of the big girl job being a proper noun and made into this important life obstacle. thank you to this stranger if you are reading this! and i shall respond to your email soon!) i think what is stressing me out most now is figuring out what i want to go back to school for, i've really been procrastinating looking into programs. alas why must there always be something in my life i choose to procrastinate. i'm hoping talking more about it and documenting that thought process might actually clarify how i feel to myself. this is something i never expected when starting this lil yt channel--was how speaking out loud and creating things in video format, much like a journal entry, allows me to better understand what i want and how i feel. it's actually become quite effective for me, because i love making these little videos and sharing my thoughts, and so i'm forced to think about and confront that which i choose to procrastinate. i had another interview today, and i think it went pretty well:) unfortunately i wasn't as excited about this position as the one i interviewed for in this video. man, i just loved the research team of the previous one, they all seemed so enthusiastic and passionate. and i really enjoyed that interview, probably because i rambled on about a class for 5 minutes oop i didn't end up documenting as much with my sister during this trip because i had no more job interviews or girl vs unemployment related things to do, but i had such a lovely time. my wallet is still recovering. i meal prepped and cooked a LOT, you're welcome dude 😒 i had such so much fun with kendra, i've mentioned her a few times in previous videos, but this was the first time i got the chance to film some moments together and i'm very grateful:) also this is a terrible thumbnail 😭 thumbnails and titles are so stressful, because i spend like 30 hours editing this lil video and there's so much pressure to accurately portray the contents of the video and URGHHHHH I HATE IT I HAVE SUCH A HATE LOVE RELATIONSHIP WITH THUMBNAILS GRAPHIC DESIGN IS NOT MY PASSION also i've finally conquered some of my previous fears and anxieties surrounding making these lil videos and so i'm hoping to be more consistent:) if you're reading this, thank you for watching and for being so wonderful 🫶🏻 love, claire music: @prodchibi Music by ROM COM - Why Would I - https://thmatc.co/?l=34DA726F Music by ROM COM - Say Anything - https://thmatc.co/?l=AEB41BD3 Music by Lyle Kam - rush - https://thmatc.co/?l=FF6E73D0 Music by Naomi - Paper Wrap - https://thmatc.co/?l=1EC41D1C