【摂食障害】"普通に食べる" が出来ない。誰にも打ち明けられなかった過食症について。

While editing this video, or rather, from the moment I decided to film it, tears flowed many times as I remembered how I felt back then. It's been over two years since I stopped overeating, and yet I still find myself crying so much... It shows how painful those past few years have been for me. It's difficult to fully express the events of the past few years in just a 20-minute video, and there are many things I couldn't express or forgot to mention, but in closing... For those who currently believe they have no value For those who mindlessly or tearfully stuff themselves with food For those who binge eat, regret it, and resolve to "stop tomorrow!" but can't stop To those who feel ugly about themselves and have come to hate themselves: Deep down, I think it's because you love yourself that you try to avoid overeating and try to gain "clear value" by losing weight. That was exactly what I was like. I understand all too well the feeling of only finding value in your thin self. However, this is just my opinion, but the key to remission from an eating disorder may not be "changing yourself," but "accepting yourself as you are." (Though that's difficult.) I think I was able to gradually accept myself because someone else, not me, accepted me for who I am. I'm sure you'll blame yourself again after binge eating. But sometimes, when you have a little free time, try saying this: "The me who binge eats is also me now, so it's okay. Thank you for being alive, me." It's okay if you force yourself. If possible, say it out loud. I hope from the bottom of my heart that you will be freed from your suffering as soon as possible. Thank you so much for watching the video all the way to the end! 🌿 ↓Here's an article summarizing my experience on Note!! https://note.com/i_was_here2 --- 📱I also update my social media accounts, so please follow me! 💌 Instagram ▶   / kokone_hana   I'll continue to post casually, so I'd love it if you subscribed and commented! ❕ #EatingDisorder #Bulimia #AfraidOfEating #SelfEsteem #DifficultToLive #BulimiaExperience #SpeakingHonestly 🍙What I Talk About in This Video🍙 0:00 Opening 0:10 Introduction 1:35 My Current State 2:16 The Period I Struggled with an Eating Disorder 2:40 What Triggered My Eating Disorder 4:38 The Beginning of My Diet 5:53 Restarting After a Failed Diet 7:09 Anorexia Period (3rd Year of High School, May-September) 9:33 The beginning of binge eating 9:50 My binge eating period (third year of high school, October-March) 14:42 What started my binge eating recovery? 17:30 For those currently suffering 19:00 Closing thoughts