MINDSCAPES - Visions of a mind adrift. Soulful Poetry/Music

MINDSCAPES - The Breakdown of Reality (Song of an overwhelming sensory journey) A powerful sonic adaptation of my original poetry, transforming a stark internal landscape into an immersive musical journey. Written from an alexithymic and late-diagnosed autistic perspective, this song tracks the complete deconstruction of my written work, rearranging the raw verses into a dynamic lyrical structure driven by atmospheric energy and a soulful guitar solo. LYRICS Laying my mind open. Before the world. Terrifying vistas. Now unfurled. Alien 'scapes. Lurid fantasy. Ordinary dissolves. No reality. Elusive fragments. Desolate vision. Becoming... unbecoming. The mind's collision. Never being... Nothing exists... No stationary handhold. In the mist. [Chorus] Stars as bright as suns. Ebony clouds race. Electric violet skies. Shifting time and space. Chasing the moons. In a lightning flight. Scant illumination. In the empty night. No permanence here. No place to rest. Howling winds of eternity. The ultimate test. Unfathomable gulfs. Where the shadows grow. Dust seas of chaos. The undertow. Endless umber dunes. Waves on the land. Unreachable horizon. Shifting sand. Winds tearing the earth. Cast upon time. The desert swells. A brutal climb. [Chorus] Stars as bright as suns. Ebony clouds race. Electric violet skies. Shifting time and space. Chasing the moons. In a lightning flight. Scant illumination. In the empty night. Sands heaving. In groaning tides. The earth breathing. Where nothing hides. Stuttering gasps. Hear the sound. Writhing in death. On the barren ground. Unbecoming... Never being... Into the void... THE STORY BEHIND THE WORDS My work is an exploration of the perceptual barriers between minds and between mind and reality, written from an undiagnosed neurodivergent perspective but dedicated to anyone who has ever felt disconnected, stranded in their own thoughts. I wrote a lot of my poetry nearly 40 years ago, during my 20s & 30s. At the time I was completely unaware of the reason why I felt the way I did. It wasn’t until September 2024, at the age of 64, that I was finally diagnosed with Asperger's/Autism. Looking back, the poetry was my undiagnosed mind trying to process the intense isolation, the sensory weight, and the profound feeling of WTF! Decades later, I have finally brought these words to life. This is what it felt like to navigate a world that made so little sense to me long before I had the words to explain why. I can only hope that it helps you on your own path to self-discovery. HOW THIS TRACK WAS MADE The Writing: All of the poetry and lyrics are my own. I created the lyrics for this song mostly by deconstructing my original poetry. The Music: Yes I use AI, I have to. My poetry has sat dormant for decades because of an inability to express it in the way I wanted. I use it as a tool, it's my canvas and my brushes and I hope you see it that way. Suno.com was used for the vocals and music. I've tried to play most instruments over the years with zero success. Plus, I'm tone-deaf and wouldn't subject my worst enemy to my singing! The Visuals: Vizzy.io was used for the video visualisation. It allows me to handcraft them to suit the mood of my work. I didn't want flashy animated AI graphics, just something simple to keep the focus on the mood. I hope it works. LETS CONNECT Thank you for listening. If this creative expression resonates with your own journey of self-discovery, late adult autism diagnosis, or neurodivergence, please leave a comment—I'd love to hear your story. Any suggestions you might have for how I might improve the channel or the visuals are always welcome.