Day 59 |Repressing Anger is Dangerous: Cancer Studies, Thorn Metaphors & Pausing My Art Until I Heal

Day 59 of my daily video journal. In this vulnerable episode, I share how I'm recovering emotionally while tackling practical home tasks (rat proofing, insurance surveys, hardware store runs). Most importantly, I discuss the critical importance of releasing long-held anger after hearing about studies linking repressed anger to cancer diagnoses and mortality rates (Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn). I reveal why I'm intentionally pausing the final Root Chakra painting until I've purged stored resentment—and confronting the fear behind submitting my art series to galleries. Topics covered: ☼ Recovery Update: Feeling better than yesterday but not fully recovered yet; allowing space for tears. ☼ Home Tasks Ahead: Installing rat excluders, roof vent covers, completing insurance e-survey over the holiday weekend. ☼ Mic Setup Delays: Wrong adapter ordered (DJI Mic 3 vs. Mic Mini)—better sound coming soon! ☼ Work Stress Validation: Co-workers and boss acknowledging heavy workload pressure; introducing the phrase "don't borrow trouble from the future.” ☼ Breathing Technique: Making exhales longer than inhales signals safety to the nervous system. ☼ Anger Research: Study findings from Full Catastrophe Living connecting women who repressed anger to higher cancer diagnosis/mortality rates (please verify independently). ☼ Childhood Conditioning: Being told to "be the bigger person," knowing better, rationalizing others' hurtful behavior = anger invalidated. ☼ Thorn Metaphor: Suppressed feelings embed deeper like the thorn in my finger requiring "minor surgery"; festering instead of healing. ☼ Art Block Revealed: Afraid to finish Root Chakra painting because submission to gallery = risking rejection/acceptance anxieties. ☼ Authentic Creation Plan: Process anger first through journaling/screaming/art so sacred work carries genuine intention for safety and grounding. ☼ If you've been taught your anger isn't valid, or if you're delaying creative completion due to gallery/submission fears—this video is for you. Your emotions matter, and authentic expression requires honest processing first. Subscribe for more journey updates as I continue purging hidden emotions, preparing for gallery outreach, and building tools for nervous system regulation. Resources mentioned this episode (I earn a 10% commission on Bookshop.org purchases through affiliate links): “Full Catastrophe Living” by Jon Kabat-Zinn: https://bookshop.org/a/124528/9780345... Article about studies linking suppression of anger to cancer: https://doctorsbeyondmedicine.com/the... __________________________________________________________________________________________ If you like artsy tees, hoodies, and housewares, check out my Etsy shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/JuluminousArt Check out my curated bookshop (I earn a 10% commission on purchases made through this link): https://bookshop.org/shop/julesmusings If you enjoy art process videos, check out my other channel:    / @juluminous   Hi 👋 I’m Jules. I’m a 47 year old neurodivergent (AuDHD) woman who is rediscovering joy and creativity in midlife, and these are my musings on what I’ve learned so far, as well as current challenges. I am doing this in part to get more comfortable expressing myself verbally and being seen exactly as I am, right now. If this has value to you, great! I welcome you. If you hate it or don’t get it, I wish you wealth, health, and happiness in your journey. Please find other channels you enjoy more… or make your own! 😸🖤 For now, I’m just recording with my iPhone. I may invest in more equipment later, but for now, I just want to get started without anymore excuses for not doing so.