Finding Composure, Lost at Sea | I Thought the Biggest Lesson Came From Cancer. I Was Wrong. EP 1

I was offshore on a sailboat on May 15th, 2025. Perfect Southern California afternoon. We were in the starting sequence of a race. Rope in my hand. Phone buzzing in my pocket. I couldn't answer it. The horn blew. We took off. When I finally checked my phone I had nine missed calls and one text from my 13-year-old son: "Get home now. Mom had a seizure." Weeks later we learned it was glioblastoma. Then my father died. And life kept handing me moments I didn't get a vote on. But here's what I couldn't stop thinking about. In the middle of all of it — on that boat, in those hospitals, in those months that followed — I didn't fall apart. Not because I'm special. Not because I'm strong. Because something happened in my body before my mind could catch up. And I caught it. I've spent the last year trying to understand what that was. What I found has nothing to do with mindset. Nothing to do with motivation or meditation or breathing exercises or any of the things we've been told to try. It's something that happens inside a moment. A specific, physical, predictable moment that most people never see coming. Once you see it you can't unsee it. This is Composure. And this is where it starts. New episodes every week. Subscribe so you don't miss what comes next.