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and i love when people say that depression is not real, like its all in your head (duh?) and then proceed to get it themselves after a while??? like u said its not real so did you catch a holy spirit or what? anyway, my case with depression is actually not irrational cause the main reason im like that is the world lmao. Just because someone brought me into this world for god or devil knows what, now i need to do something? bro im good. turn me into a rock or something and throw it into a river because i never had any real wishes. even as a child i kept wondering y we exist because its just like a waste of time. like we are always constantly waiting for something and thats all we do. i found it boring and i still do. maybe its because i rationalize everything around me too much but idk how people find a reason to turn blind eye to everything around us and say its none of my business. anyway i forgot what i already wrote lol