【ゆるラジオ】適応障害で休職1ヶ月と11日目｜ようやく休むことへの罪悪感が減ってきた

It's been 1 month and 11 days since I took leave from work due to adjustment disorder. Before, I used to feel guilty, anxious, and worried about taking time off, so I'd force myself to go out even when I was feeling unwell. But now I've gotten used to resting, and when I'm feeling unwell, I stay home and sleep a lot. (※There's a bit of a gap between taking photos and posting because I'm prioritizing my recovery.) 〇Current situation (as of posting) I'm experiencing PMDD (premenstrual irritability and anxiety) on top of that, and I'm in a period where the waves of adjustment disorder are subsiding because I have to decide this week whether to extend my leave (I don't know if that's possible) or resign. Also, anxiety about my livelihood and what will happen if I can't work in the future is making things worse, my breathing is shallow, and I feel even more depressed. There were days when I couldn't even take a bath. I also went to one job interview but didn't get the job. What a shock! However, with my current level of fatigue, even taking the train is difficult, so I thought it would be impossible to work from July anyway, and I'm a little relieved. Right now, having to make a decision and contact the president this week to discuss things is incredibly stressful. I'm also worried about whether the president will buy back my unused paid leave or even let me quit. I'm just overwhelmed with anxiety and feel like I'm going crazy, but I guess I just have to believe that things will work out somehow. sigh