I Only Meant to (I) Trilogy

I laid my coat on the chair Left a note by the sink Said I was done with this world Said I was down to the brink I shook my hands like rain And I swallowed my shame I only meant to disappear I only meant to erase my name But she came in with her keys Singing low to the hall Saw the glass on the table Saw me staring at the wall She said, "Baby, look at me" Like a prayer from the dark Then the room went cold and quiet And the stillness took its mark Oh Lord, I broke my home Oh Lord, I broke my home I meant to die alone I meant to die alone Now her ring lies in my palm Now her dress hangs in the dawn Oh Lord, I broke my home (oh Lord) I broke my home I called out her soft name But it split into dust She folded like a paper hymn In a room full of rust The bottle rolled under the bed Like a judge with no face And the whole house held its breath In that terrible place I pressed my cheek to the floor I said, "Please, let her breathe" But the morning was a raven And it sat there over me The sheriff asked me why And I could not speak plain How a heart can hold a thunderstorm And a hand can hold the rain I wanted the end of me Not the end of her song Now every road I wander Says I was wrong, I was wrong Oh Lord, I broke my home Oh Lord, I broke my home I meant to die alone I meant to die alone Now her ring lies in my palm Now her dress hangs in the dawn Oh Lord, I broke my home (oh Lord) I broke my home If I bury this old shame Will the dirt know my name? If I kneel in the mesquite wind Will the sky do the same? I hear her laugh in the screen door I hear her feet on the pine But the house is just a body And I killed what was mine Oh Lord, I broke my home Oh Lord, I broke my home I meant to die alone I meant to die alone Now her ring lies in my palm Now her dress hangs in the dawn Oh Lord, I broke my home (oh Lord) I broke my home