Corners and Cracks

You traveled miles just to be in my space While keeping her ghost in another place My best friend screams that you're poison in my veins But my heart keeps calling out your name despite the pains You were my everything, my sun and moon Now I'm drowning in this emotional monsoon We're breaking up to make up again This toxic cycle that won't end I hate you more than words can say But love you more than myself each day This beautiful disaster that we're in Where do you end and where do I begin? You filled the corners and cracks in my soul Then left me shattered, not quite whole I try to walk away, I swear I try But like a moth to flame, I can't say goodbye She's still there in the background of your life While I'm playing second fiddle to your hidden wife We're breaking up to make up again This toxic cycle that won't end I hate you more than words can say But love you more than myself each day This beautiful disaster that we're in Where do you end and where do I begin? Burning me alive with every touch I know I should hate you, but I love you too much My mind says run, my heart says stay Caught in this beautiful, painful way My best friend says I'm losing myself Loving you more than my own damn health We're breaking up to make up again This toxic cycle that won't end I hate you more than words can say But love you more than myself each day This beautiful disaster that we're in Where do you end and where do I begin? I cannot let go, though it's burning me I cannot move on, though it's killing me I cannot hate you, though I want to I cannot love you, but I need to Off again, on again When will this end? Never, I think Never...