Still in the silence - night | silence | emotions

I still hear your footsteps in the hallway at night Like a shadow that refuses to leave the light The coffee on the table's getting colder each day And every little memory keeps finding its way Back into my mind when I'm trying to sleep Back into my heart where the hurt runs deep I thought that time would teach me how to let you go But some wounds stay hidden underneath the snow Everybody says the storm will pass But they don't know how long these echoes last And I'm still in the silence you left behind Talking to a version of you in my mind Trying to find reasons, trying to understand How someone can disappear without a trace of their hand I keep reaching for a light that isn't there Holding on to moments floating in the air And every night I tell myself I'll be alright But I'm still in the silence tonight The city keeps moving while I stand still Learning how to live with what I cannot heal There are songs on the radio I cannot play Because they sound too much like yesterday And I know that you're somewhere under different skies Maybe smiling, maybe living a different life While I'm collecting pieces of the girl I used to be Trying to remember what it feels like to be free Everybody says the pain will fade But some goodbyes are never fully made And I'm still in the silence you left behind Talking to a version of you in my mind Trying to find reasons, trying to understand How someone can disappear without a trace of their hand I keep reaching for a light that isn't there Holding on to moments floating in the air And every night I tell myself I'll be alright But I'm still in the silence tonight Maybe one day I won't look for your name In every crowd, in every passing face Maybe one day this ache will finally rest And leave a little room inside my chest But tonight the moon knows every tear I've cried And every word I never got to say goodbye I'm still in the silence you left behind But I can feel the morning slowly changing my mind The scars are still with me, but they don't own my soul Maybe healing isn't losing you, it's learning to be whole So I'll carry the memories, let the sorrow drift away And I'll meet a softer version of myself someday Though your shadow lingers underneath the fading light I won't stay in the silence tonight.