FC-Bayern-Star Christian Lell: „Ich starb – bevor ich gestorben bin“

I jumped. And I should have been dead... This is what a man who became German champion, played in the Champions League – and rose to prominence at FC Bayern Munich – says. Christian Lell speaks publicly for the first time about what no one wanted to see: Violence in his childhood home. Drugs. Emptiness despite success. A life that seemed perfect on the outside – but was falling apart on the inside. In this two-part episode, he tells his true story. Not as a footballer. But as a human being. Part 1: The moment he died – before he died. Part 2: From the rockstar life in Ibiza to inner freedom (tomorrow). This episode addresses suicidal thoughts, mental health crises, violence, and drugs. Please listen carefully. Helpline numbers can be found in the show notes. If you're functioning on the outside – but struggling on the inside: This episode is for you. 00:00 I didn't want to be alive anymore 03:55 I spent my entire childhood at FC Bayern 07:22 A brutally honest reckoning 08:18 Hermann Gerland was my most important coach 10:39 The decision to write a book 13:10 The death of my sister 16:02 A look in the mirror changed everything 17:50 I was on the wrong track for 30 years 22:08 I was the boy with a dream 25:20 I was 9 and just wanted to survive that night 28:19 A lot of violence and alcohol in my parents' home 29:14 Fear made me resilient as a player 33:53 This led to my depression 39:55 The moment I jumped 42:03 I died – before I died 43:54 This is how it continues now