Hard To Hold

Hard To Hold is an autobiographical Blues - Rock ballad. I am Neurodiverse and have relationship / communication issues. I'm not easy to love as some have found out. I don't want to be this way but it can be a struggle. Fortunately I now have someone in my life who really works to understand the way I am and loves me anyway. Lyrics Hard to Hold Copyright 2026 Morgan St. James and Windlass Productions Verse 1 I've walked through fire, I've worn these scars Carried old ghosts in a beat-up heart Built up walls that I can't explain Learned how to smile while I hide the pain Every road I took alone Turned my heart into weathered stone But when you look at me that way I feel those walls begin to break Chorus I'm hard to hold, but I want your arms around me Your heartbeat next to mine tonight I'm hard to hold, but I want to hold you Be with you, keep you in my life I've spent so long running from the feeling Afraid of what our love might do I'm hard to hold, but all I really want Is to be held by you Verse 2 I've made mistakes I can't erase Seen too much leave without a trace Sometimes I pull away too fast Like I'm still fighting with the past But you're the calm inside my storm The place that finally feels like home And every time you call my name I don't feel quite so lost again Chorus I'm hard to hold, but I want your arms around me Your heartbeat next to mine tonight I'm hard to hold, but I want to hold you Be with you, keep you in my life I've spent so long running from the feeling Afraid of what our love might do I'm hard to hold, but all I really want Is to be held by you Bridge Maybe love Just ain't easy Maybe I'm a restless soul But your touch it feels like mercy When the nights get dark and cold I don't need perfection I don't need promises carved in stone Just stay with me a little longer And help this wandering heart come home Final Chorus I'm hard to hold, but I want your arms around me Your heartbeat next to mine tonight I'm hard to hold, but I want to hold you Be with you, keep you in my life No more hiding, no more running No more living half-alive I'm hard to hold, but if you'll have me I want you by my side Outro I'm hard to hold... But I don't wanna to be alone Your heartbeat next to mine Feels like home... Feels like home...