LIFE UPDATE....IT'S HARD TO TALK ABOUT.

A dose of my reality and how I’ve been feeling the last 4 months waiting for and dreading this upcoming day. This post is not me baiting for sympathy, or stirring hate among people, or asking for pity. I took my dogs for a walk for a minute alone and this is where my thoughts took me. There has been no change of heart or desire for reconciliation since the day he left. Sometimes I feel like I lost my dignity begging him not to do this. I’m unashamedly transparent, but in all honesty, this has been humiliating for me. To have it all so public has been such a difficult hurdle to jump over but at the same time, the outpouring of love and generosity has been an answer to so many prayers and I have seen angels working through my virtual friendships through all of you, and the people I hold dear. I am so sorry we have disappointed you. The loss is unbearable sometimes and the reality of what is actually happening in my life is even more disappointing. We really have suffered a death, except we took his pictures off the wall. Instead of looking at them fondly, it’s painful to see and reminds us all of what was always going to be— a few years in the future. I loved deeply. I know Heavenly Father knows it. I tried to be a loving helpmeet and I wanted him to succeed. But I guess if the price of success is too high… wait till you get the the bill of regret💔😣 #contemplating#sad#brokenheart#thinking#broken#heartbroken Join this channel to get access to perks:    / @thebigfamilyjewels   SENEGENCE DISTRIBUTOR ID: 802225 https://web.senegence.com/en_us/?dist... LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/theboyefamilyjewels To send us something by mail: PO Box 901605 Sandy, ut 84090 Follow TheBoyeFamilyJewels on Instagram! https://www.instagram.com/theboyefami... Follow Julie:   / julieboye   Her Fitness page:   / gymjewels   Faceboook:   / julie.boye.31   [email protected] (remember the j in the middle)