crawling - vyxen

crawling is out now and available on all streaming platforms ! Connect with me: Youtube: ‪‪@vyxenmusic1‬ Instagram: @vyxen_music Ticktok: @vyxenmusic Lyrics: I wake up tired but I never went to sleep Mind running marathons in lanes I’ll never leave Pressure in my chest got a voice, it keeps talking Says “you’re already late,” every step feels like I’m crawling I look in the mirror, see a stranger with goals Big dreams, cracked frame, tryna carry it all Everybody claps when you're rising, not breaking But they don’t see the cost of the chances I’m taking I’ve been biting my tongue ‘til it tasted like blood Smiling in rooms where I don’t feel enough Every compliment feels like it came with a catch Like they’ll take it all back when I finally collapse And I can’t tell if I’m strong or just numb If I’m chasing the light or afraid of what comes Got a war in my head and it don’t ever pause Every win feels illegal, like I broke some laws I carry the weight I don’t show Heavy in places they’ll never know I built my name on doubt and scars Now I can’t tell who the hell we are I scream inside but I stay on code Play my role like it’s all I wrote But the truth cuts deep when I’m alone I’m everything—and nothing I own Ambition tastes bitter when it’s mixed with fear Like a voice in my head saying “Why are you here?” Every step forward got a shadow attached Like success is a leash and I’m tied to the past I’ve been chasing a version of me I invented But the real one’s buried, forgotten, neglected I keep raising the bar just to feel like I’m worthy Then I break under standards that nobody’s forcing My circle gets smaller the higher I climb Less people around but more noise in my mind Conversations feel fake, like scripted replies I can’t tell who’s real when I’m wearing disguise And I hate that I need what I say I don’t Validation hits harder than anything I smoke Tryna silence the doubt but it echoes back Every “you got this” turns into a crack I carry the weight I don’t show Heavy in places they’ll never know I built my name on doubt and scars Now I can’t tell who the hell we are I scream inside but I stay on code Play my role like it’s all I wrote But the truth cuts deep when I’m alone I’m everything—and nothing I own What if I stop? Do I disappear? If I lose the grind, what’s left of me here? Am I me without all this pressure and pain, Or just empty space addicted to strain? They say “slow down,” but I don’t know how If I’m not chasing something, who am I now? I built this cage out of dreams and doubt Now I’m too deep in to find a way out Still I wake up, lace fear in my stride Carry the chaos I bury inside If growth is pain, then I’m overgrown Still chasing peace I’ve never known