اختبار مسلمة سابقة قبل عودتها مجددا الى الاسلام- ج4/ 4

Personal Truth No. 4: Private Interview (dated October 9, 1995), audio and video, with Mrs. Nahed Mahmoud Metwally (Fibi Abd El Masih Cross) The fourth and final part - Testimony from a former Muslim before returning to Islam. ======================================= ... All your promise is right, and your words are true, thank our Lord. After that, Manal got weak and returned to Egypt. She could not live with me, because we applied to obtain political asylum. And because they put a lot of pressure on the politicians in the initial stage, there are few funds and houses are not good, and they put us in the lower south. She started telling me: “Our Lord does not accept that, I am not used to this level of living,” and she returned to Egypt and left me. After that, I heard that she married a Muslim. I said: “It is over!” I started tearing her pictures and throwing them, and saying: “Manal is dead, I do not have a girl named Manal, but of course I felt in me that the one who was baptized and took the body and blood of the Lord, could no longer let her be lost in Islam. I began to pray again and say, "Lord, will you leave me living all my life alone? Will you leave me deprived of my children?" After a while, I found Manal calling me again and telling me: "I want you, I am a Christian, I regret it, I am mistaken, there is no like Christ, I want to return." But "How are you going to come back?! You are tied in every way. A Muslim husband, and you are in Egypt, and State Security know you. The matter is over." But of course, the hand of the Lord is strong. Manal came out to me from Egypt on 6/30. She came to Germany while she was pregnant in the ninth month in order to give birth to Maria on 7/19. 3 weeks before giving birth, Manal gets on a plane and leaves Egypt, Lufthansa, and goes to Germany and I go, pick her up in Germany, and bring her by train to Holland. As soon as I knew that she was pregnant, and did the rays, and knew that she was a girl, I sat praying and said to him: “Do not, O Lord, allow my first granddaughter to be like Aisha or Khadija, do not allow that.” I thank our Lord. The Lord never allowed it. I also felt yearning for my son. My son is very handsome and kind, feeling that his heart is good. I said to the Lord: "I miss my son; I yearn to see him." then I found that he started calling me, I found that the phrase "I want to kill you! I want to slay you!" turned into the phrase "My love, Mama, I miss you." Glory be to you, O Lord, but I also remained afraid of Him at first. I was worried that he might ambush me, especially since my children had previously ambushed me. I told him, “Well, my son, we have a Christian friend, a Copt from Egypt, who will invite you to England. I chose England as it is far from Holland, far from my home, in order to see if he is honest or not. My son came and met him after 6 years. I met him in England. We stayed beside about 8 days. After that, I went back to the Netherlands. And every time he spoke to me, he used to say to me: “I miss you, I can't stand it!” I say: "Glory be to you, O Lord." After that, and until my son became a mechanical engineer, he graduated from the College of Engineering "Power Mechanics", and then he worked for the “Volks” company in Egypt. He called me happily and told me: "Mum, the company will reserve a suite for me near your place of residence, as it will send me for two weeks to get some training." I told him: “You will not be able to come to me. It requires that you obtain a visa from the Netherlands in order to be able to come, since his name was placed on the information system to prevent him from entering the Netherlands, for my protection. I said: "Lord, I hand over the matter to you, you will act." After that, he was able to come to the suite (which is reserved for him in the Netherlands), but it was difficult for me to go to him, and it was difficult for him to come to me, even though he was near me and we were contacting each other daily. After that, I found him telling me: “My mother, the branch of the company in Belgium has invited me to be with them for 3 days,” and since there are exactly 3 hours between us and Belgium on the train …