My Eyes Lie

My eyes lie. I see what you would never understand. I hear, but have no proof. The voices, the faces, everywhere all at the same time (as one.) (Make it stop!) I don’t know what to do? The cars pile into flames! Their voices, so familiar (not their faces.) I can’t do this anymore (it’s too Much!!!) Making me ill, (like a virus) overcoming & consuming Me!! Blood, So Much blood down My nose. (Can’t breathe) In the darkness of the night I lose my breath. Have I pushed too much? (How much more DO I HAVE Inside!?) Have I gone too far? (What CAN I REALLY DO!!?) My NIGHTMARES ARE REAL!!!! THEY HAUNT ME EVERYWHERE I GO! (All the time!) I FEEL IT DEEP INSIDE (as if I would have died.) Help Me. Help Me!!! Why won’t you listen!!? I’m gripping to life as My story unfolds (Slowly.) No more plot. No more Hero. This is not my story, (these are not my pages.) Ripping the writings from my hands. (A false author) THAT IS WHAT I AM!!!! Read the word of the gospel, please tell Me what it all MEANS!!!!!! My Lord do you know what I know? Do you hear what I hear? Do you see what I SEE!!!!! A Monster Deep inside, afraid of what happens when We die. (Uncontrollably!!!!) IT’S UNCONTROLLABLY!!!! I’m lost, Lord I am lost. Give Me your glory, give your grace, GIVE YOUR GUIDANCE!!!!! Teach Me your ways (My Lord!!!) Forgiveness, honour, JUSTICE!!! My LIFE ISN’T WORTH YOUR TIME (in belief) YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME GO!!!!!!!! I know I am not in hell but Lucifer Laugh’s at Me everyday (ha, ha, ha,) IN THE DARKNESS OF MY MIND!!!!!! (IT’S UNCONTROLLABLY!!!!) My Mind lays dormant in the dark, harbouring inside My cave of memories. And well none of this makes sense help Me understand why I’m still, UNCONTROLLABLY LOST!!!!!!!! I’m uncontrollably lost within My own Mind.