I'm supposed to be studying but I want to salvage my yt channel. (Personal growth talk)

Heyy!! sorry for being inactive for like 3 weeks. who am I even apologizing to? lately I've fallen back to confirming to life. Or, perhaps there's been a lot of things going on in my life that bring me joy. But I want this to be part of my joy as well. I'll just talk about my current academic predicament with someone I'm growing to adore.