7. "What I was most afraid of" | The Plastic Detox, Mother’s Day, and Seeing Endometriosis and Ad...

Living through infertility is anything but static. One day, we feel hopeful, motivated, and inspired. The next, we can barely get out of bed. There are seemingly endless periods of waiting — for the next appointment, the next test result, the next treatment cycle. In those spaces between answers, it’s easy to fill in the blanks with our fears and worst-case scenarios. Then new information arrives, and once again we have to recalibrate, pivot, and find a way forward. In this personal update, Miriam shares what life with infertility has looked like over the past few months — from navigating Mother’s Day and making lifestyle changes to receiving the MRI results she feared the most, and facing the possibility of the new diagnoses of endometriosis and adenomyosis. In this episode, Miriam discusses: How Netflix’s The Plastic Detox documentary changed the way she thinks about plastic — and what she’s choosing to wear because of it. How Mother’s Day went from one of her most painful days of the year to one of her most meaningful — and what made the difference. The anti-inflammatory diet she just started, why she chose it, and why it’s the first time in a long time she’s felt genuinely motivated to do something for her health and fertility. Receiving the MRI results she feared most, including signs of deep infiltrating endometriosis and diffuse adenomyosis, and what those diagnoses mean for conception. The frustration of spending years seeing doctors, undergoing two IUI cycles, and spending thousands of dollars — only to find a path to diagnosis through a Reddit forum and other women’s peer support. How sewing a dress for a baby she may never have is helping her find moments of healing, creativity, and joy amid uncertainty. This podcast is for anyone living in the middle of an unfinished story — without answers, guarantees, or a clear path forward. These are the stories of navigating infertility while still in the midst of the unknown. Welcome to the InFertility Stories Podcast. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit infertilitystories.substack.com (https://infertilitystories.substack.c...)