Can't Break Free

Lyrics These thoughts keep circlin' Like a storm in the rafters Sayin' I'm empty-handed Like I ain't built for after I can't shake the weight It sits heavy on my chest I look in the mirror And I don't see my best I say I bring no joy Like that's written in my bones Like every room goes colder When I'm standin' there alone I know I should not feed it I know that line is cruel But the dark gets loud at dusk And I start believin' fools So I grab for a verse When the night starts to spin I reach for my brother For the light from within I reach for the pages And the words start to hold I reach for a prayer When my hands feel cold I can't break free I can't break free But I'm still here, I'm still breathing I can't break free I can't break free Still, I'm reaching, still I'm reaching Turn me toward home Turn me toward love Turn me toward something That's bigger than enough I tell myself I'm selfish Like a hammer in my head That I take up space too much And leave good things threadbare I say I can't provide Like my hands don't know how Like every time I try I let somebody down But my sister texted "call me" And my mama kept the plate And my little boy still laughs At the dumb face that I make So maybe I ain't useless Maybe that's a lie I wore Maybe love keeps showing up Even when I lock the door So I sing in the kitchen When the house goes still I let the old hurt tremble But I don't let it kill I turn to the family When my heart won't move I turn to the pages Till the wound gets soothed I can't break free I can't break free But I'm still here, I'm still breathing I can't break free I can't break free Still, I'm reaching, still I'm reaching Turn me toward home Turn me toward love Turn me toward something That's bigger than enough I used to love Sundays And the smell of fresh bread Now I chase that old joy Like it's gone for dead So I try new words out Let 'em stumble, let 'em land I paint my hurt in rhythm Try to understand If I can't rise above it Then I'll climb through it slow One page, one name, one promise One more mile to go I don't got all the answers But I got tonight And a song can be a doorway When the dark feels tight If I'm honest, I am tired If I'm honest, I am scared But I hear my name in voices That still want me there So I turn to song And I turn to grace I turn to the ones Who know my face I can't break free I can't break free But I'm still here, I'm still breathing I can't break free I can't break free Still, I'm reaching, still I'm reaching Turn me toward home Turn me toward love Turn me toward something That's bigger than enough I can't break free I can't break free But I won't let the dark define me