ESHRAL - CHILDHOOD (ft. Lana Woodall) (Audio) | @eshral.otb

Eshral - CHILDHOOD (ft. Lana Woodall) (Audio) - Track 4 from the EP "UNCOMMON" Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3Wo0Jl... Performed by Eshral:   / eshral.otb      / @eshral   Produced and mixed by Eshral:   / prodbyeshral      / @prodbyeshral   Lyrics: Let me take you back to Barton, playing with my brother on the grass and kicking ball and laughing, Bounce it off the fence messing up that little garden, arguments that started almost never lasted, Cuz we were young and maybe took some shit for granted, but still I had his back I'd never grass him back then I weren't the hardest, Now I got experience the pain'll get me barring, all them nightmares all them nights they were the darkest. And now I'm writing down my dreams, it's like it's only then when I can really feel like me, Think I was nearly ten when I first started to believe, that I could make amends and always get back on my feet, Then pressure hit my chest and all the hope started to leave, I took a couple Ls and then I lost a couple Gs, Kept on losing friends as I was going through my teens, and by the end of them what's left was just me and the team. So I do this for them don't need a new set of friends, to my bros sis and mum it's me and you to the end, All we got's time and choices and your future depends, on what you're doing with them I thought I knew it all then, But then I realised time ain't your friend, it flies by when you smile decelerates when you're stressed, I ain't feeling life so I'm just writing to vent, it's been a while since I could smile without a fight in my head. When we were young, we went through it together, That stuff weighs a ton, it never really gets better, From memories I run, back then I would never, I wanna go back to fun, I wanna live there forever. Some memories I'm running from and some of them I chase, like when we stayed up late I shut my eyes and see the place, Them times I used to blaze thought it was fine but now it ain't, thought they were better days but getting high was an escape, Been trying not to break I'm feeling tired and it's late, my mind was full of hate I try reminding it of faith, But darkness creeping in it always finds a way, just wanna fly a million miles away back to them days. But back in primary's when my disorder decided, that he's in charge of guiding all the thoughts behind my eyelids, While other kids were out there playing football I was fighting, my head I'd stay behind cuz all the pens need organising, I'd do it slyly so the teachers wouldn't find me, that voice inside my head saying you better make it tidy or, He'll come and find me and always live beside me, no matter what I do though man he always seems to fight me. And in the last twenty bouts he's got the best of me, ever since a kid little things stressing me, Maybe it's just destiny fate the way I'm meant to be, it's hard the way I'm second in command I'm like his deputy, Strayed so far apart from what my path is devil tempted me, then I found my heart that's through this art I swear it set me free, Or at least it let me breathe cuz I've been drowning since I felt it leave, yeah I been drowning since I felt it leave that's back when we. When we were young, we went through it together, That stuff weighs a ton, it never really gets better, From memories I run, back then I would never, I wanna go back to fun, I wanna live there forever.