Escape

Late nights, screen glow on my face Another world, yeah I’d rather stay No pressure, no pain, no names to defend Just me and my rank, no need to pretend Real life calling but I hit decline Too many thoughts, yeah they crowd my mind They say “go out, you’ll be fine” But they don’t feel what I feel inside It’s easy talk when you’re not in my place You don’t see demons I’m tryna erase I’m not lazy, I’m just out of breath From fighting battles inside my head So I respawn where I feel alive In a world where I don’t gotta hide XP up while my fears stay low Out there’s fast, in here I control They tell me “leave, you’re wasting time” But this is peace that I can’t define If you lived my life, you might understand Why I hold this controller tighter than your hand Headset on, yeah I mute the noise No judgment here, just girls and boys Grinding levels, chasing a name In this world, I matter, I’m not the same Outside feels like a losing fight Inside I shine, inside I’m light Comfort zone? Yeah maybe it’s true But it’s the only place I make it through They say “change”, like it’s just a switch Like healing scars is a simple glitch If it was easy, I would’ve moved But pain don’t work like they assume So I respawn where I feel alive In a world where I don’t gotta hide XP up while my fears stay low Out there’s fast, in here I control They tell me “leave, you’re wasting time” But this is peace that I can’t define If you lived my life, you might understand Why I hold this controller tighter than your hand Maybe one day I’ll log out slow Step outside, let the real me grow But for now don’t judge my way I’m surviving day by day So if you see me fade away Just know I’m fighting in my own way Not lost… just taking space Trying to heal in a safer place Follow me and support my other socials for more songs 😁 Tiktok: @redeldritch