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Hello, this is Yooyoung. It’s been a while since I last posted… How did everyone spend 2024? Hehe. If I were to make an excuse for my absence, I’d say… I’ve always viewed this channel as a place to share my life of studying—where I could post videos that offer motivation, comfort, and energy. But recently, as I’ve been contemplating the direction of my life, I found myself unable to come to this channel. If anyone has been waiting for me, or if anyone remembers me, I’m truly sorry and grateful… 🤍 For those who have been following me, you probably know that I was a teacher preparing for grad school. Here’s a bit of my rambling life story: After passing the teacher certification exam, I stumbled upon the field of psychology and found counseling theories so interesting that I decided to pursue graduate studies. I was accepted into my school’s graduate program but ended up canceling my admission and decided to prepare for a general graduate school entrance exam with a renewed focus on truly studying. Recently, as I’ve been talking to people outside of education, I realized something: I’ve been living in such a small world. In conversations, I was reminded that the world is vast, and I’ve only been seeing a tiny portion of it. While some people view teaching and helping kids grow as an expansion of their life experience, for me, since my school years, I’ve always wanted to experience new environments rather than the familiar classroom. I realized I have a strong desire to experience and learn more about the world in a broader way. However, becoming a teacher makes it hard to consider changing careers. Also, since I love working with children and it doesn’t feel completely wrong for me, I’ve never thought about leaving the teaching profession. Teaching is also a stable job with a good work-life balance, so I’ve never really considered leaving. But even though I’ve spent my vacations resting and having time off, and after work I’ve been enjoying my work-life balance, every day, there’s been this feeling in the back of my mind: “Is this really all there is? What am I doing with my life?” I didn’t realize it at first, but one day, the thought “I can’t keep living like this” surfaced in my mind. I didn’t want to keep looking at life only through the lens of the school, but now that I’m over thirty, I can’t help but feel a bit anxious about it… Hehe. I also thought, “What if I pursue something I think I want, but later realize it’s not what I really wanted?” It was a dilemma… And I had to consider the fact that I would need to invest at least two years in studying… I couldn’t ignore the precious time I’d be missing with the people I love during those two years. I’ve never been particularly lucky with exams… I’ve always been someone who has to study exhaustively, crying and putting everything I have into it to get the results I wanted. So, I really thought long and hard about it, but in the end, I came to the conclusion—just like I’ve learned through trial and error in the past—that I should pursue what I really want right now. It’s strange, but I feel like I’m a bit slow to realize these things in life. Why do I always have to go through hardships to understand? But I guess this is just how my life works—slowly realizing things, struggling, and learning along the way… I’ve accepted it. I’ve rambled a lot about my personal life, and I don’t know if anyone will read it, but if any of you are going through similar struggles, let’s face this uncertain life together… Hehe. How do you make your decisions? Lately, I’ve been finding it really hard to understand people’s values. Anyway, I don’t know how my future will unfold, but from now on, I’ve decided that my decision-making will be simple: Do what I want right now, but with the mindset of giving my best to each day. So, I plan to live each day with this thought in mind. To those who’ve read this post or watched my video, I hope your days are filled with meaning and happiness! Thank you so much. :) Email: [email protected]