how I almost lost everything and found my people

What if everything you worked for was about to crumble? Even as the world celebrated your success? Almost a decade ago, I took a love for music and built something real in Toronto through my management company NSTMGMT. Alongside my brother Photo Will, we turned NST into a real collective, something that honestly felt like a movie while it was happening. For a while, we were unstoppable. The shows. The momentum. The city’s energy. It’s still a chapter people bring up today. But it didn’t end clean. Business got messy. Relationships were burned. We got betrayed. And it taught me something I didn’t understand at the time. Even when the outcome looks like failure, you can still walk away rich in the things that actually matter: brotherhood, experience, and identity. This video is a look back at the pressure, the wins, the collapse, and the bond that formed inside it. I’m forever grateful to the NST crew, and to everyone who supported us in Toronto and around the world. Shout out to my brother Photo Will:   / photo_will   Shout out to the legend DCR Milda:   / dcrmilda   Thank you to Alex Henrry and Holly Rowden from Alfredo Films for the footage: https://www.alfredofilms.com/ For the thoughts that don't fit in a video: https://letters.derekhui.com Join the Discord: https://artoflivingbig.com Follow me on IG:   / everything_derek   Edited and filmed by Darren Ha:   / darren_ha   0:00 Intro 0:22 Victory From The Outside 0:47 Arrival in Bangkok 1:49 The Brotherhood 4:00 How I met Will 4:46 The moment that changed my life. 5:24 Arrival in Phuket 7:12 What Does Pressure Create? 9:11 The Next Chapter 9:57 Late night thoughts