I Just Can't (Visualiser) - Slow Panic

Lyrics: I wander as a stranger in this world, with no one.. and nowhere to turn to.. I always walk by silently from people, to avoid being hurt.. or being judged.. I let down my walls to nobody, and they keep staring at me.. Like I've done something wrong.. As if everyone should know me.. But would they like?.. Knowing the real me?.. As I am far different.. Than I let on to be.. Will they accept.. who I am?.. Will they reject.. what I am?.. I don't know.. I don't wanna know.. As I'm far too used to the pain.. Of being seen as someone! (that I'm not!) And believed to be something! (that I've never been!).. How I wish.. I'd adapted.. To the customs in this world.. How I hoped.. I'd formed.. The things they'd have me be.. But I can't be someone else! I can't live like a shell!.. I can't do what I dislike! Even if it's to get loved.. Will they believe.. that I am?.. Will they see.. that I can't?.. Change myself for something hopeless.. Change myself for pleasing them.. Will they fight.. what I am?.. And tell me that I'm wrong.. For being so different.. Seeing me as a lost cause.. I JUST CAN'T!.. Imagine being seen as someone! (that I'm not!).. And believed to be something! (that I've never been!).. And claimed to be unique! (just so they'll use me!..) I hate to see this way my life can end!.. Pretending! To be not myself!.. And adapting! To what others want!.. Pleading! To stop pushing me!.. And taking advantage of me.. Wherever it's possible.. Wherever it's applicable.. I don't like this at all! I hate this more than all!.. What good is my life?.. If I can't get to be myself! Why shall I? Bend to people's rules?.. Why shall I? Accept these ways so cruel?.. Just to get my way in life!.. Through hurting others! Through blaming them! Through making them feel bad! About themselves! Like I was once forced to! Yeah I am a psycho!.. But I also care.. for people.. Even if I.. struggle at showing it.. #slowpanic #ijustcant #TheGhostIKept #Metalcore