【ASMR】根拠ゆるゆるタイプ診断ロールプレイ

Good evening, this is Sleepy's double page spread. Bang How are you these days? I'm pretty level-headed. Life is pretty even. I'm motivated, but pretty calm. I wonder why... I thought about it a bit while waiting to upload, and I think it might be because I lack a sense of urgency. My main driving forces are anger, impatience, and rebellion. But my current job is something I'm somewhat familiar with, and I have experience, so I can adjust accordingly, and there's no deadline pressure. I'm not getting yelled at, but I'm not getting praised either, and I'm even a little worried about whether I'm growing. I hate being busy, but there's something incredibly refreshing about running through work on time, with your little brain working at full speed. Going home feeling warm and fuzzy. I love that feeling. (I'm a rookie and haven't done much work. It's like when Ham-chan spins his hamster wheel at full speed but the coordinates don't change at all.) I'm the type who can easily confuse leisure with boredom, so when things are stable I get anxious. It's like playing Russian roulette with an empty gunlance, it's weird. Now that I think about it, as a way to deal with boredom, I started writing down "things I like" in my journal. I'll go copy that out. -------- Likes ・Cars (exteriors and interiors) ・Driving (listening to music while driving) ・Creating (clay, nails, sewing, etc.) ・Miniatures ・Travel ・Coffee ・Interior design ・Comedy ・Music (hip-hop, older bands) ・Relationships (friends, romance) ・Diagnostics, fortune telling ・Food (Italian, Japanese meat, Chinese) ・Clothes (normcore these days, with a bit of street style and Korean influences) ・Scents (perfume, incense, fabric softener) ・Recognition (recognition in areas of expertise, being praised, being relied upon) -------- This is so me. I know this is obvious, since I'm writing about myself, but It's so me that it's boring. I thought it was a joke. Looking at this, it seems like it could be roughly divided into two categories. ① Things I want to accomplish independently ② Things I want to be influenced by others I'll categorize them below. -- ① Cars (exterior and interior) Driving (listening to music while driving) Crafting (clay, nails, sewing, etc.) Miniatures Coffee Interior design Comedy Music (hip-hop, older bands) Diagnostics, fortune telling Clothing (normcore these days, with a bit of street and Korean influences) Fragrances (perfume, incense, fabric softener) ② Travel Relationships (friends, romance) Food (Italian, Japanese meat, Chinese) Recognition (recognition in areas I'm good at, praise, being relied upon) -- It's mostly ①, Mr. Yagami... I'm aware of this, but ① has become a stalemate in both my thoughts and values. I enjoy living life to myself, filling my own miniature world with things I like and memories. As for ②, I would like to fully embrace other people's influence, interact with them as much as possible, and develop it evenly. I feel like I'm fine with what they say and how I feel. It's like I've miraculously achieved a balance between my unchanging core ①, which is completely independent of others, and my mutable ②, which makes me want to be recognized and belong to something. Is it really balanced? I feel like I'm living my life picking out little bits of ① and ② depending on what elements I'm lacking at the time. That's what I'm starting to feel. Right now, it's probably ② that's lacking. Maybe I should try eating food from a country I've never eaten before.