Why Making Your Own Music Makes You Question Everything

If you've ever sat in your home studio and thought — am I actually good at any of this — this video is for you. I'm Saurabh, one half of award-winning composer duo Saudur. We've placed music on an Amazon Original series, scored feature films, and composed over 150 TV commercials for major brands. I'm a singer, a songwriter, and a producer. And the feeling of not being enough of any of those things? I carried it for longer than I'd like to admit — well into a career that, from the outside, looked like it had figured things out. Here's what I get into in this episode: — Why singer-producers feel like frauds in both worlds simultaneously — The specialisation myth that makes you feel permanently behind — Why the comparison you're making against other singers and producers is structurally unfair to you — How to find the peer group that's actually relevant to where you are — How I learned to stop presenting myself as an incomplete version of two things and start owning what I actually am This isn't about confidence hacks. It's about understanding exactly why this feeling exists — and why the fact that you feel it says nothing about your actual ability. 📌 CHAPTERS 00:00 — The feeling nobody names 01:09 — Where the impostor feeling actually comes from 02:23 — The specialisation myth 03:50 — Find your tribe 04:27 — The identity anchor 05:18 — Our Story 05:41 — Summary 🎙️ GEAR I USE (Affiliate Links) System: MacBook Pro — https://amzn.to/49aS47J Audio Interface: Audient iD14 MKII — https://amzn.to/3YdM2hD Microphone: AKG C414 XLII — https://amzn.to/48SMdVI Headphones: VSX Modeling Headphones Platinum Edition — https://amzn.to/4axyB3w Camera: Canon EOS R50 RF-S18-45mm — https://amzn.to/3MTBVMv Camera Lens: Canon EF-S 24mm f/2.8 STM — https://amzn.to/4pU6uQE Video Microphone: Hollyland Lark M2 Wireless — https://amzn.to/45d9pMc MIDI Keyboard: Arturia KeyLab Essential 61 mk3 — https://amzn.to/4q3UBI3 Monitors: PreSonus Eris Studio 4 — https://amzn.to/49sDjyj 🔔 Subscribe for honest, experience-backed content for singer-producers building music from home.