Out With The Old......In With The New?! How do we move forward?!

It is never easy to use your pain and your mistakes as a lesson and a teachable moments for others. The easy thing to do is pretend that all is okay, lie to others, fake a smile and give off the image of perfection. It takes bravery to expose yourself, your pain, be vulnerable and honest to others about the things you aren’t proud of in hopes of saving or sparing someone else from ever having to go through what you have. It takes bravery to do that. While others sit on their thrones of self righteousness preaching as if they’ve never tolerated anything in life, never overlooked a red flag, never brushed something off to avoid unnecessary conflict, never bended to accommodate someone else and if they were in a situation they know very little about that they would’ve done this or that. It’s easy to say that when it wasn’t you. It’s so easy to sit there and feel like you’re so much better than the person who is exposing their imperfections and pain, self inflicted or not. I get it. Some of us have a purpose in this world and some of y’all have yours. When I am good and ready I turn pain into art, I am an artist. I am also a healer. I’ve done it my entire life. It’s who I am and who I’ll always be. I will continue to move through this world being who God created me to be even if I have to walk alone. I am at peace with that. To be very clear I am not asking, begging or trying to convince anyone of anything. It doesn’t change anything over here or over there if y’all believe or not. I had a message for the people it was meant to reach and I did it knowing the hate I would receive and I’d do it again a million times over because I do not live for the validation of anyone. Your validation doesn’t keep me warm at night, it didn’t lift me up when I was on the floor fighting my fights alone, it didn’t save me, it wasn’t visiting me at the hospital, it didn’t pick me up, it didn’t take me in, it didn’t pay my bills. Let’s be fxcking for real. I am moving into this new year without fear in my heart, and I will continue to use my experience as Gods testimony because that is who was there with me at every step of the way. If that makes me a horrible person in your eyes, I truly and whole heartedly do not care one bit. You have no power over here. I will never take into consideration your opinion of me when you have the least amount of information about me, my life, my situation and my experiences. You simply don’t know. And I know you believe that you do. That’s the delusion behind this space called social media. But I live in the real world. The only opinions I will ever consider are my own and those of the people in my real life, respectfully. Those are the ones who picked me up, held my hand in the hospital, took me in and mended my broken pieces. To be crystal clear I focus more on my success off these platforms because when you give others the power to “make you” you also give them the power to break you. Don’t confuse the love you get on these platforms. Because the same people who lift you up today will be the first in line to tear you down tomorrow. I will never give any one that power over me or my life. That power is in my hands and mine alone. What I’ve built no one can take from me. And if tomorrow all of this goes away, I stand tall and firm. I know this app confuses a lot of you and y’all give others and yourselves imaginary powers. I am blessed that God keeps me grounded in every single way. I suggest y’all seek that God instead of these internet Gods you praise. Thank you all for joining me today, may we walk into this new year with more wisdom, strength and grace. Elli Soul Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_ellisoul/?... Tik Tok & Twiiter: _Ellisoul Snapchat: Elli_Soul Business Inquiries: [email protected] Music    • Video