There Were A Lot Of People Who Were Obsessed With Me, Bullying Me, Shanay (06 26 2026)

There Were A Lot Of People Who Were Obsessed With Me, Bullying Me, Shanay. Filmed June 26, 2026. It's apparent to me now there were a lot of people who were obsessed with me and I didn't even realize... And the reason was for wrestling with Shanay, my stepfather's daughter 25 years ago. It wasn't criminal. It was overdramatized, overembellished. But my grandfather had a problem with it. My uncles, and cousins, and aunts all had a problem with it, and they basically set out to sabotage, and traumatize, and reject, and exclude me. I have a suspicion my family was significant in some capacity, whether they were associating with pop stars or whatever they were doing. And they were including Shanay, my stepsister, and they were really sympathetic with her. And that's fine. I wasn't necessarily thinking of Shanay as my enemy for the past 25 years. In fact, maybe I even liked her. I don't know. They say it's kind of like the episode where Mr. Burns from The Simpsons gets shot. He doesn't know who Homer Simpson is 99% of the time. But the moment he gets shot and goes into a coma, all he says is "Homer Simpson". And basically, when I discovered there were secrets with Shanay 3 years ago, all I've been saying on my channel is Shanay, my stepfather's daughter. But yeah, jokes aside, I didn't even really think of her for the past 25 years, honestly. But what I did know is my stepfather definitely did not like me. He was bullying me. He was terrorizing me. He was putting my nervous system into chaos. He was making me walk on eggshells. And for the longest time, I didn't really know why. I didn't really put the puzzle together. I thought the reason he was doing it was maybe because I wasn't working and was disabled with schizoaffective. I thought maybe the reason was I was a leech on the household and I was home all day every day with him and my mother and maybe that was the reason he didn't like me. And it was always pretty obvious they were sadistic with me and trying to make me jump, and startle me, and bully me, and I was like a passive victim in the household. Obviously, 2005 a few years prior to the wrestling with Shanay took place. I started running marathons from 2005 to 2011 and then I had like six psychiatric hospitalizations in 2011 and I was put on tons of medications and they all led me to believe I was delusional and it was all my imagination. But now I'm beginning to think there were just secrets here, and lack of communication, and lack of accountability, and nobody wanted to tell me what was going on. And I think the reason nobody wanted to tell me is because my mother and stepfather from 2005 to 2011, at the very least, were trying to get away with murder. They were hoping I dropped dead. It wasn't just lack of intervention. It wasn't just enabling. They really thought that they were going to kill me and get away with it. I think the same is true for social media. I don't know. Yeah, it's kind of like Frank Grimes from The Simpsons too. I'm approaching 40 years old. My life has been a living nightmare. I've been terrorized, abused, and tortured by my mother and stepfather. I suspect there's secrets with my father. Maybe he's associated with a significant person. Also, secrets with my cousins, aunts, and uncles. And when I discover the truth, I'm just going to flip out like Frank Grimes, somebody who suffered his whole life. His life has been a living nightmare. But, basically, just don't react. Not reacting and succeeding will speak louder than any "fuck you" ever could. Don't suffer the way they hoped. They were expecting righteous anger, a tantrum, rage. Instead just say nothing, do nothing. They had bad intentions. They were bullying me sadistically. It's just the reality. And they were obsessed with me. And I was just enthusiastic in 2019, happy about a screenplay, and they were bullying me.