SIGNAL LOSS

Static where your frequency used to live I press my ear against the noise and hold my breath The tower light is blinking red—I count the gaps Between the signal and the silence left You taught me constellations through a cracked windshield Now every star looks like a satellite I trace the wires back to where they split And find my hands are shaking in the light I'm losing you in the bandwidth I'm losing me in the static Every word I didn't transmit Becomes the space between us SIGNAL LOSS—I'm broadcasting to the void Signal loss—and the frequency is yours If you're out there in the dark, send me anything A heartbeat or a hum—I'll tune to everything I found your jacket in the hallway closet Smelled like rain and someone else's apartment The voicemail box is full, the inbox cleared You disappeared in increments, not all at once The radio plays our song to empty rooms I mouth the words but nothing carries through I used to think that silence meant you're listening Now I know it means the line went dead I'm losing you in the distance I'm losing time in the wreckage Every call that went unanswered Becomes the weight I'm buried in SIGNAL LOSS—I'm broadcasting to the void Signal loss—and the frequency is yours If you're out there in the dark, send me anything A heartbeat or a hum—I'll tune to everything BREAK THE ANTENNA BURN THE TOWER DOWN IF THE SIGNAL'S DEAD THEN LET ME HIT THE GROUND I WAS WAVING— YOU WERE WALKING— I WAS SCREAMING— NO ONE'S TALKING— Static... fading... Is that you breathing? One bar left— I'm not leaving. SIGNAL LOSS—I'm broadcasting to the void Signal loss—but I'm not giving up the noise If the tower falls, I'll climb the wreckage high I'm still here. I'm still here. I'm still—