Kendall does not want Greenlee and Ryan to join her at Christmas

AMC 12-16-10 Kendall tells Ryan that since he is Spike's father he can come join them at Christmas, but not to bring Greenlee. Ryan asks if he wasn't Spike's father would she feel the same way about him. Kendall tells him that if he wasn't Spike's father then she wouldn't want him around either. Kendall tells Ryan that they are too much of a painful reminder for her, of what she no longer has with Zach.....no more holding hands, no more waking up in his arms, no more curling up next to him, no more vacations, no more Christmases or New Years.