Healing Became An Addiction

There are moments in life where you become so broken that you’ll try anything just to feel whole again. After my divorce, I hit the darkest season of my life. On the outside, I was still training celebrity clients, traveling privately, and living what looked like a dream life. Inside, I was drowning in trauma, heartbreak, anxiety, shame, and emotional pain I had spent my whole life avoiding. In this deeply vulnerable episode, I share the beginning of my healing journey through breathwork, meditation, plant medicine, spirituality, emotional healing, and eventually finding God. From mushrooms and ayahuasca ceremonies to facing childhood wounds, surrender, identity loss, trauma responses, and the search for purpose, this episode explores what happens when you stop running from pain and finally face yourself. This is not about escaping reality. This is about learning how to heal. This conversation explores men’s mental health, emotional healing, trauma recovery, spirituality, plant medicine, ayahuasca, self-worth, surrender, addiction to achievement, nervous system healing, purpose, and learning how to love yourself again. This is not just a story. This is a safe space. If you’ve ever felt lost, emotionally exhausted, spiritually disconnected, or desperate to heal the parts of yourself you’ve spent years hiding, I hope this episode helps you feel seen and less alone. Pull up a chair. Thanks, Brad Timestamp: 00:12 The pain after divorce 01:12 Breaking down with Mike Tyson 02:09 Beginning the healing journey 03:57 My first mushroom experience 07:56 Sitting with ayahuasca 11:01 Feeling unconditional love 14:33 Facing childhood trauma 18:55 The toad and surrender 23:29 Why I stopped the medicine 29:38 The moment I found God 33:01 Choosing van life and Costa Rica 37:50 Healing my relationship with my mom 45:14 My eating disorder wake-up call 48:34 Passing up huge opportunities 57:23 The crash that ended everything Connect with me Instagram:   / bradbrowe   Facebook:   / brad.rowe2   Website: www.frontrowe.co Apple podcast:https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast... Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7rcSTkN...