If I Mattered

Song I made with zona.ai app. original lyrics. All my songs written are copyright ©️ protected Hope you enjoy :) [Intro] mm-mm sometimes I wonder (not again) who I'd be now if somebody had shown me I mattered (mm-mm) [Verse 1] how different would my life have felt if somebody had looked for me? if disappearing wasn't easier than believing somebody cared if every silence wasn't filled with waiting to be forgotten if I learned young that I was worth something would I still carry this weight? would I still question my place? would I still search every room for signs I'm in the way? [Pre-Chorus] sometimes I think (sometimes) I'm grieving someone I never got to be [Chorus] how different would my life have felt if somebody had treated me like I mattered? like losing me would've hurt like my name stayed in their head after I left would I still question everything? would I still wait for people to leave? would I still struggle to believe the things they say about me? oh-oh I think about it too much (too much, too much) yeah-yeah the life I might've had if I'd felt important [Post-Chorus] (mm-mm) if I'd felt important (oh-oh) would I know it now? [Verse 2] would I walk a little lighter? would I trust a little easier? would kindness feel normal instead of something I have to question? would I know how to stay without expecting goodbye? would I see myself differently through my own eyes? cause every compliment still feels like it belongs to somebody else and every good thing takes a fight before I let myself believe it [Pre-Chorus] maybe that's why (why) some things hit harder now [Chorus] how different would my life have felt if somebody had treated me like I mattered? like I wasn't temporary like I belonged somewhere would I still pull away every time somebody gets close? would I still search for proof that they'll leave eventually? oh-oh sometimes I wonder who I'd be (who I'd be) yeah-yeah if I learned earlier what care was supposed to feel like [Bridge] maybe she would've laughed louder (maybe) maybe she would've worried less maybe she would've believed people the first time they said nice things maybe she would've stayed longer instead of always being ready to run maybe she would've known she was enough all along [Chorus] how different would my life have felt if somebody had treated me like I mattered? if I didn't spend years trying to earn something that should've been given cause I'm still learning now what some people learn as children still trying to believe I don't have to prove my worth oh-oh maybe that's why it hurts sometimes (hurts sometimes) yeah-yeah cause I can almost see the person I might've been standing right beside me looking back at me [Outro] mm-mm I can't change the beginning (no, I can't) mm-mm but sometimes I miss someone I never got to be (someone I never got to be) mm-mm and I still wonder how different it would've felt