Episode 18: Self Abandonment | Numbing with Alcohol | New York | Sexual Assault feat. Fikile Mthwalo

In Episode 18 of The Best Of Me, Samora Mangesi sits down with Fikile Mthwalo for a courageous and deeply personal conversation about self-abandonment in romantic relationships, using alcohol to numb emotional pain, and the long shadow of childhood sexual trauma. Fikile opens up about how losing yourself in love; over-giving, over-compromising, shrinking to be chosen can slowly disconnect you from your own needs and identity. Together, the conversation unpacks how unresolved trauma can shape attachment patterns, self-worth, and the way we show up in relationships. We also explore: Numbing emotional pain through alcohol The difference between coping and healing Living in New York and navigating independence, ambition, and identity The long-term impact of childhood sexual assault on trust and intimacy Reclaiming your voice, your body, and your boundaries This episode is not about victimhood, it’s about awareness, accountability, and the journey back to yourself. As always, The Best Of Me creates space for truth without judgment because healing begins where silence ends. If this conversation touches close to home, know that support is available and you don’t have to navigate it alone. Come for the chaos. Stay for the clarity. 🎧 Available on YouTube, Spotify & all major podcast platforms.