Surrounded by loved one's who are nearing the end of their lives / Living with a death sentance

I am living with an incurable Brain Disease. Cerebral Amyloid Angiopathy. How does it affect you when you know there is a time bomb ticking inside your Brain and there is nothing you can do to cure it or get rid of it. How does it feel when you are watching loved ones around you go through their journey and heading rapidly toward the end of their time. It completely messes with your head that is how. I give you an update on my recent "episodes" caused by blood leaking into the Brain. I also tell of my recent loss of 2 friends. Thanks for following me. Some conditions linked with C.A.A: cerebrovascular disorder, accumulation of amyloid beta-peptide within the leptomeninges, lobar intracerebral hemorrhages, cognitive impairments, hemosiderosis, nflammatory leukoencephalopathy, Alzheimer disease, transient neurological symptoms, I have been living with the symptoms of Cerebral Amyloid Angiopathy for nearly 11 years and was officially diagnosed in 2020. I feel my time is really ticking.