Safety - Yvng Koneko [Pop rock, Electronic Rock, scream, Rap]

The lyrics belong to me, but the music itself was made with the help of AI, so technically its not real music, but the lyrics always hit close to home for me because I rant into them. So despite how horribly AI music is treated I make it, because I want someone to sing my songs, and i don't have the right experience to make the piano version public yet. Every song i make starts out as a poem sitting unused in my journal LOL (Verse 1) I wasn't searching for a wound, I was searching for a way to breathe. Thought the silence would let go... Instead it buried me beneath. Years keep stacking on my shoulders, Different house, another town. Funny how the past remembers Every road that I walk down. People say that time can fix it. Maybe time just changed the scars. Every day's another question— How'd I make it this far? (Pre-Chorus) It starts so quietly... A memory... a smell... a face... Then everything inside me Begins to shake... (Chorus) Safety's got a loaded gun... Pointed at the person I've become. One more trigger... one more spark... Trying not to fall apart. Safety's got a loaded gun... I keep praying I can learn to run. Don't let this become my name... Don't make me live it all again... Again... Again... Again... (Verse 2) I hate how small things break me open. Songs and photographs and streets. Someone laughs the wrong way beside me, Now my heartbeat skips a beat. Everybody thinks I'm healing. Maybe I am... maybe not. I'm exhausted carrying yesterday Everywhere I forgot. I don't wanna be this fragile. I don't wanna brace for pain. I just wanna wake up one morning Without fearing my own brain. No, no... not now... My thoughts hit the gas and they never hit brakes. Every little sound feels bigger than it takes. My chest gets tight—my pulse won't slow. Where'd the ground disappear? I don't know. My mind keeps splitting into fifty conversations. Every possibility becomes a destination. Did they notice? Did I slip? Why's my breathing losing grip? Keep it together... don't panic... don't move... Smile like you're fine... got nothing to prove... Why's every memory waking up at once? Why's every heartbeat sounding like a— (SCREAM) GUNSHOT INSIDE MY HEAD! EVERY SAFE PLACE TURNS TO RED! I DON'T WANNA LIVE LIKE THIS! I DON'T WANNA LIVE LIKE THIS! WHY CAN'T MY BRAIN JUST LET ME GO?! WHY DOES EVERY TRIGGER GROW?! I'M SO TIRED OF FIGHTING WARS THAT NOBODY ELSE CAN KNOW! (Chorus) Safety's got a loaded gun... Pointed at the person I've become. One more trigger... one more spark... Trying not to fall apart. Safety's got a loaded gun... I keep praying I can learn to run. Don't let this become my name... Don't make me live it all again... Again... Again... Again... (Bridge) I wasn't born this way... I just got lost somewhere. Looking for relief... Found another nightmare. If healing's only measured By the mornings that I stay... Then maybe I am stronger Than I ever let myself say. I don't wanna be the girl that's always looking over shoulders. Don't wanna measure every room before I step a little closer. I wanna laugh without my heart preparing for a fight. I wanna sleep without negotiating with every single night. I'm sick of introductions to the ghosts I thought had died. Sick of hiding every crack beneath a practiced smile. If I could trade this mind for silence... God, I swear I would... (SCREAM) BUT I'M STILL HERE! I'M STILL BREATHING! EVEN WHEN MY WORLD IS CAVING! I REFUSE TO CALL THIS HOME! I'M NOT MY SCARS! I'M NOT MY FEAR! EVEN IF THEY FOLLOW YEAR AFTER YEAR! I'M STILL STANDING... I'M STILL HERE! (Final Chorus) Safety's got a loaded gun... Pointed at the person I've become. One more trigger... one more spark... Trying not to fall apart. Safety's got a loaded gun... Maybe one day it'll come undone. Until that day, I'll face the flame... And fight the voice that says I'll never change... Again... Again... Again...