chf breaks down the real nega beat and talks about getting pegged

I've tried to do this a bunch of times. Every time, I would think, "The person on camera isn't being genuine". Since my face was not involved, uploading shitty beats was much easier. How do I face putting up a video knowing I'll look back and think it's terrible? Well, not doing it has gotten me nowhere, so I'm going to see what happens. I know I say it a lot, but y'all are seriously amazing, and I'm thankful to have anyone care about this shit. strangers wish me well before even saying anything else to me. its awesome. I don't even remember disclosing how much of a sad sack I was, though I'm sure I probably did, because people fucking check in on me. STRANGERS. To put that in perspective, I communicate with both of my parents solely through Facebook; in fact, my mother blocked me after telling me I needed to be a better son. My father is more awkward than I am, and I struggle to even want to build a relationship with him. you people though? Fuck, I wish I could meet each one of you and give you a hug, a handshake, or a punch to the chest. whatever you're in to. I never imagined having anything worthwhile for myself. You all have shown me that doesn't have to be the case. Not everyone wants to see me fail. I do plan to make more beat breakdowns. I'd love to teach you all how to be confident in your musical knowledge while focusing on training your ear to recognize what you like, and utilizing these DAWs to fill in the gaps of knowledge as well... I am the Osiris of that shit.