Dean Winchester || Titanium (BFV)

PLEASE READ. "I can see inside you, Dean. I can see, how broken you are. How defeated; you can't win, and you know it. But you just keep fighting just, keep going through the motions. You're not hungry, Dean because inside? You're already dead." "You carry all kinds of crap you don't have to, Dean." "Well in that case you should be able to see that I am, ninety percent crap. Get rid of that what then?" "Decide to be fine until the end of the week. Make yourself smile because you're alive, and that's your job. And then do it again the next week. Do it right, with a smile. Or don't do it." This was one of the hardest videos I have ever had to make. Not only because I hardly have any Supernatural footage anymore, but because we had to choose a character from the fandom we're vidding, mine is Supernatural, and it's all about "Put yourself in my shoes", choosing a character we feel close too/can relate to the most. This is why it was so hard for me, because I knew immediately it was Dean. Which is why it's so hard for me to upload this video. I kept it relatively vague, because I don't want to seem or sound depressing, but basically, I am Dean Winchester. Everything I have ever gone through, or am going through, I bury it. I don't let it out. I just...go. Go through the motions. It's what I've always done. No matter who tries to help me out of it, who tries to get me to talk to them, I just ignore them, it's like I don't hear them. Because this is what I've always done, so why change that? I chose this song because it's not entirely sad. It's about hope. And I think on some level, at least I hope, Dean has hope. I know I do, one day, I plan to not be this way. That's why I chose this song. Showing I am strong enough, Dean is strong enough, we can get out of this hole we've dug ourselves in. No matter who beats us down, or insults us, or whatever support we may or may not have, we can get out of it. Even if right now, all we can do is go through everyday with a fake smile. Most of this video is metaphorical, because my problems are generally different than Dean's, even though we have the same views on almost everything. I hope my point gets across, and I'm sorry if this was depressing. But, I didn't want to drop out of this contest just because I was afraid of people seeing how I really am. The video itself is relatively simple, I know. But I didn't want to do anything too extravagant. And the quotes are seriously important. So yeah. :) Reblog on Tumblr : http://demons-and-deatheaters.tumblr.... Song//Titanium Artist//Gavin Mikhail Editor//Taylor Marie Fandom//Supernatural