Can you see me?

If you're here and you can see me, that means I'm real. I exist in this current reality. and it makes me wonder, why is it so scary to be seen even though all we want as humans is connection , to be understood and accepted for who we are. Isn't that simple? You'd think. But I think being seen can feel exposing like all your insecurities coming to life and put on a plate for everyone to see and analyze and question so it's easier to hide and not show the world who you are because then you are safe. When you're invisible, you're safe. I don't want to be safe anymore, I want to be exposed. I want all my fears to come to life so I can conquer them. I want to speak from my heart. To be truthful, to walk through life with utter authenticity that it would force everyone to question their own. Maybe when someone is real, it reminds other people they can be real too. I also think sometimes we hide parts of ourselves to make other people feel comfortable. We dim our light to make other people feel more comfortable because we fear if we shine too bright it would blind some people. But I also think that once you share something with people, they start having expectations. I also think part of what makes being seen uncomfortable… is that once people see you, they form an idea of you. And once people form an idea of you, it can start to feel like you owe them consistency. Explanations. Access. Even though as humans we are constantly evolving and changing our identities but as humans we feel like we want to put people into boxes because it's easier in our mind to categorize each other. And part of this is that I never wanted to be put into a box. I think humans are multidimensional creatures and I never wanted to be defined by one thing. This is why I always had a hard time sticking to one path or one road because I saw unlimited possibilities that you can be in life and it was overwhelming the fact that you can never experience all these paths and eventually we do end up paving our way in one path or another even if you take multiple detour, you eventually will land somewhere. I don't think I've figured this out, I just know I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone and push through things that feel like they wanna make wrap myself in a blanket and hide under the bed.