Chaos and Calm

Verse 1 People say I'm hard to read Like a book with missing pages I can light up every room Then disappear for days and ages I laugh loud enough to shake the walls Tell stories like I've got no fears But there's a quiet place inside me That's been carrying years and years Pre-Chorus I'm a contradiction walking A puzzle I still can't solve Every version of myself Trying hard to coexist and evolve Chorus I've got a happy personality But a soul that still feels sad I'm brave enough to chase the future Yet haunted by the past I had I love the noise of crowded places But I'd rather be alone I'm healing and I'm hurting Somehow both have become home Still searching for the balance Between the chaos and the calm Trying to find a little peace After carrying storms so long Verse 2 I know growth like an old friend I've climbed mountains just to prove it But self-sabotage knows my name And sometimes I still listen to it I've learned how to survive the fire But survival isn't living free I'm tired of fighting every shadow That still follows part of me Pre-Chorus I'm a thousand different colors Painted over cracks and scars Still learning that the broken pieces Don't diminish who we are Chorus I've got a happy personality But a soul that still feels sad I'm brave enough to chase the future Yet haunted by the past I had I love the noise of crowded places But I'd rather be alone I'm healing and I'm hurting Somehow both have become home Still searching for the balance Between the chaos and the calm Trying to find a little peace After carrying storms so long Bridge Maybe I don't have to choose Between the darkness and the light Maybe both are part of me And both are worthy of the fight Maybe peace is not perfection Maybe balance bends and sways Maybe strength is simply getting up And trying again each day Final Chorus I've got a happy personality And a soul that's learned to ache I've been shattered, I've been stubborn I've made every wrong mistake But every scar has taught me something Every fall has helped me stand And though I'm still a work in progress I'm finally learning who I am Still searching for the balance Between the chaos and the calm But I'm finding pieces of my peace After carrying storms so long Outro I'm bold and shy Lost and found Still becoming Still unwinding A little chaos A little calm And somehow They're both me.