I Was Ordering Fentanyl Off The Dark Web In College | Gambling, Xanax & How I Finally Got Sober

Jordan Freeman had everything going for him — loving parents, a spot at one of the top business schools in the country, varsity baseball, and a bright future. But behind closed doors, he was ordering Xanax off the dark web, gambling with money he didn't have, blacking out and not remembering a single thing from the night before — and calling it normal. By his sophomore year at Indiana University, Jordan was locked in his apartment alone, blinds down, friends knocking on the door, completely lost. He didn't want to die. He just couldn't see any hope left. Now, coming up on 5 years clean from drugs and gambling and nearly 3 years alcohol-free, Jordan is finishing his Masters in Social Work at NYU and helping others find the path he fought so hard to find himself. In this raw and honest episode of Rise Above, Jordan shares: -Ordering fentanyl-laced Xanax off the dark web in high school and college -How gambling consumed every dollar, every thought, and every relationship -The day he sat his parents down and finally said "I can't stop — I need help" -Three months in treatment in Orange County and what actually changed -Why he relapsed on alcohol nine months in — and how he came back stronger -What it really looks like to get sober in your early twenties -How he's now guiding families and individuals through the recovery process If you're a young person who thinks addiction could never happen to you — this episode is for you. 🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week 📲 Follow Jordan Freeman: @blueprintbyjordan (TikTok & Instagram) If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https:https://compassionbehavioralhealth.co... CBH Youtube channel: ‪@cbhrehab‬ #RiseAbove #CollegeAddiction #GamblingAddiction #SoberLife #XanaxAddiction #DarkWeb #RecoveryIsPossible #GenZSober #AddictionRecovery #YoungAndSober #GamblersAnonymous #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #RecoveryCoach #SocialWork #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #JordanFreeman #FentanylAwareness #OneMoreDay 00:00 Introduction & Guest Background 01:02 Switching Careers After Sobriety 02:23 Cross-Addiction: Drugs, Alcohol & Gambling 04:50 Life in Active Addiction 07:01 Gambling, Secrecy & Hitting Rock Bottom 13:41 Finding Hope & Purpose 15:41 Challenging Stigma & Choosing Recovery 18:48 Childhood & Early Influences 22:12 Peer Pressure, Fentanyl & Sweet Tart Xanax 24:27 Early Signs: Gambling & Social Pressure 27:47 Struggles with Self-Esteem & Social Acceptance 29:46 College Life: Social & Substance Use 36:34 Escalation of Addiction in College 41:18 Deception, Intervention & Outpatient Treatment 45:08 Hitting Bottom & Asking for Help 50:46 Entering Treatment & Lessons Learned 56:54 Life in Recovery & Maintaining Structure 01:00:17 Relapse, Complacency & Guardrails 01:05:13 Ultimate Surrender & Parental Support 01:11:19 Privilege, Decision, & Recovery for All 01:13:00 Where to Find Jordan & Final Reflections ✅ For Business Inquiries: [email protected] ================================ ✅ About Rise Above with Kevin Lanning: Rise Above: Stories of Resilience with Kevin Lanning Welcome to Rise Above with Kevin Lanning, where resilience finds its voice. Join Kevin Lanning, a former Google Executive in sobriety, as he brings you powerful stories of individuals who have navigated life's greatest challenges and emerged victorious. About Kevin: Kevin Lanning personifies resilience. From overcoming addiction to conquering childhood trauma, his journey mirrors the triumph of the human spirit. Now, he's dedicated to sharing stories that uplift, educate, and ignite the spark within you. Join us on this journey to rise above adversity and thrive. For Collaboration and Business inquiries, please use the contact information below: 📩 Email: [email protected] 🔔 Hit that subscribe button for more exclusive, insightful, and inspiring videos: https://www.youtube.com/@Riseabovepod... ================================= #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #corecore #motivation #addictionrecovery #inspiration #selflove #selfhelp #loveyourself Disclaimer: We do not accept any liability for any loss or damage incurred by you acting or not acting as a result of watching any of our publications. You acknowledge that you use the information we provide at your own risk. Do your research. Copyright Notice: This video and our YouTube channel contain dialogue, music, and images that are the property of Rise Above with Kevin Lanning. You are authorized to share the video link and channel and embed this video in your website or others as long as a link back to our YouTube channel is provided. © Rise Above with Kevin Lanning