Will it feel this lonely forever?

i’m leaving everything i know… and i’m terrified. in this video i talk about fear of change, moving abroad, and the anxiety of starting over from scratch. leaving home, family, comfort, and routine to step into the unknown, which is destabilizing, overwhelming, and deeply emotional. i also talk about creative expression as a coping mechanism, painting and youtube as a way to process emotions, overthinking, and internal conflict. creating becomes survival, a form of self therapy, and a way to make sense of change. ❤️ support my creative journey: https://buymeacoffee.com/gatoendemot 💌 send me your questions & anonymous confessions: https://forms.gle/XprTDbJiEeLPVSvu8 📝 dm me in german and help me practice:   / gatoendemoniadoo   🎨 explore more of my art: ★ saatchiart: https://www.saatchiart.com/account/pr... 📺 join me here: ★ youtube:    / @probablymelissa   ★ spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/melissa... 💭 for your mood: ★ feeling emotional:    • Poetry   ★ need motivation:    • Grow with me 🌷   📩 for collabs or business: [email protected] thank you for being here. truly. ⏱️ timestamps: 0:00 fear of change & leaving comfort 0:26 anxiety about moving & starting over 1:12 breaking old patterns 1:14 the reality of starting over 4:22 painting as emotional processing 11:15 gratitude for my community 13:48 creating as an outlet 16:20 finding meaning in suffering 16:53 growth through discomfort