The painful reality of choosing Passion over Stability... | Quitting My Dream Job

This is the part that no one talks about.. I chased happiness.. while one half the world told me to be practical, while the other half told me to be spontaneous... But I did BOTH.. so why do i still feel empty.. whew... this video def required me to dig DEEP into my deepest thoughts.. hahah some that I wasn't sure if I should share.. but honestly.. this was the whole point of why I wanted create videos.. so that I can intimately connect with you guys.. and give you my full authentic self... which means.. it'll be ugly, messy, and chaotic too.. because I am NOT perfect.. and this is.. who i am.. 🥹 No but honestly.. guys I can't tell you thankful and grateful I am that you guys have given me the safe space throughout this entire journey so that I can feel confident and safe to share these vulnerabilities on this platform.. you guys truly made me realize what it means to be unfiltered, unapologetically, and undoubtedly the real version of myself.. and to be proud of it❤️ This vlog is awfully long but hahahha i was just living life with yall so I hope we can do this life thing together.. and I had a lot of fun too talking with you guys.. And of course the bigges thank yous to Core Culture Pilates NYC and Nina & Christie for inviting me and the boys to come try pilates and allow me to give a fun space for the boys to just hangout and be themselves too 💕 https://www.coreculturepilates.com/ 00:00 - 02:16 - intro 02:16 - 06:50 - my loneliness 06:50 - 16:32 - up and down relationship with my body 16:32 - 17:31 - lunch 17:31 - 17:50 - encouragement from my bestie 17:50 - 18:12 - skincare 18:12 - 20:18 - sadness hitting again 20:18 - 20:59 - need a break 20:59 - 23:56 - going for a run (clearing my head) 23:56 - 25:40 - post -run shower 25:40 - 28:50 - picking myself back up (plan of action) 28:50 -33:08 - making new friendships 33:08 - 39:07 - bonding with the boys 39:07 - 41:31 - resolution