IKE - 23 (Remastered)

I texted you during class I said it was for a friend I shaved my chest, changed my hair Just to pretend I didn’t care I made a scene at some guy’s house Your perfume was in his blouse You asked if I was “doing okay” And I lied in so many different ways Nobody likes me when I’m real So I joke, and spin the wheel How to want more than attention How to say “hi” without tension You held my hand, I let it go Like if I cared, I’d lose control They say “grow up” ironically But I’m still not 23 I talk too loud, I sleep too long I make sad playlists just for fun I flirt like it’s a dare I hate Then blame the stars for showing up late I said I’m fine with being free But freedom tastes like apathy I’d rather fight than talk about Why I keep pushing real love out Nobody likes me when I’m real So I joke, and spin the wheel How to want more than attention How to say “hi” without tension You held my hand, I let it go Like if I cared, I’d lose control Still stuck in therapy But I’m still not 23 And maybe age is just a lie But I’m still stuck inside that night Where I was seen, then ran away And laughed too loud to make it okay Nobody likes me when I’m real So I joke, and spin the wheel How to want more than attention How to say “hi” without tension You held my hand, I let it go Like if I cared, I’d lose control They say “grow up” ironically But I’m still not 23 Nobody likes me when I’m real So I joke, and spin the wheel How to want more than attention How to say “hi” without tension You held my hand, I let it go Like if I cared, I’d lose control Still stuck in therapy But I’m still not 23