Hodera- "Best Intentions" (Tiny Desk Contest Submission)

My name is Matthew and I'm in recovery from addiction and depression. I write songs about my story in hopes that others will relate and feel less alone. I made this video with my friends in my backyard. I hope it makes you feel something. Lyrics: Got bored in your bedroom so we went for a drive To the lake where I grew up, it was almost midnight Stole a boat and rowed out, watched the moon eclipse go by And the water below us was as deep As the love that kept us floating there But this boat's sinking slowly now that you're gone I guess we'll just stop talking then We can forget this ever happened 'Cause it's obvious I can't just be your friend I'm going in circles 'cause I only have one paddle out here alone Got back to shore 'bout 2AM I grabbed your jacket on the boat dock And I pulled you in and we kissed It was so dark, I found your lips Only because I felt your breath I know that soon I will be fine You left this void the size of pines lake Now I'm filling it up one cup at a time And if I knew that was the last time I'd see you I might have said Hey Mary, that was one crazy summer I know after this we'll never see each other I'm old enough now to know nothing lasts forever The only thing I ask is please Remember every detail of this moment Because once you close that door you'll never see me And some day you might remember When we drove out to the lake And stole a boat to see the moon eclipse go by And when you think of this, I just want you to picture Both my eyes looking intently Hear my words as free verse poetry Feel my hands painting your body Don't regret you ever met me 'Cause I know you couldn't love me But if I must be a memory won't you frame me in a way That you will smile when you're picturing my face And then I promise I won't call you like I did When I was drunk in Austin, Texas Swear I had the best intentions I won't call you like I did when I was Drunk in Austin, Texas And I let out all my demons Swear I had the best intentions Video by Savan Sekhon Audio by Doug Gallo Performers Matthew Ryan Smith Alek Mager Ben Petty Andrew Moore Emma Blair J Owen Smith Kelly Cuthbert Darrell Jones Chris Dela Cruz Nicholas Colombo