(Day 169) P-Ranking an ULTRAKILL level everyday until I come out

I am taking level suggestions, even if they are repeat runs. I might start trying out some custom levels. I got the suggestion forever back and didn't really follow up on it, but I'm wanting something fresh and bananas difficulty didn't really do it for me. It was harder, and I enjoyed it, but it was just a one and done kind of experience. I got the P-Ranks the first time through and called it there. Digital Circus Episode 9 released on YouTube today. Did you know that if you search 'Digital Circus' on google, there's a Pomni-colored wheel you can click on for an easter egg? I wonder what kind of body I'd have if I got sent to the circus. I don't know if it'd be good but I am really curious. Anyway, I WILL be talking about SPOILERS down below. Don't read anything beneath this if you haven't seen it yet. Seriously, spoiler warning. I'm trying my best to make this as clear as possible. Got it? Okay. I'm putting a big space here. I cannot be any more clear. Anyway, I was not a believer in the Jax trans theory before episode 9. It didn't necessarily seem wrong, but it just felt a little too speculative for me to buy into it, a lot of those points could've very easily been written off as general insecurity than anything else. HOWEVER, with what we learned in episode 9, I am a very strong believer in it now. He didn't ever actually end up officially coming out or transitioning, and it's not completely clear if he (the real Jax) is still closeted now or just changed his mind, though it was definitely the case before the whole incident that sent him running from home. I was also not sold on Jax as a character until this episode. And I'm kind of surprised at how well it's sold me on him. He's still kind of a terrible person, but I still want to give him a hug, and to take care of him. He needs a good parent in his life. Especially knowing what abstraction is supposed to represent makes it really rough. I just can't get that one line he said out of my head, for some reason. I was also completely shocked to see Caine return. I was not banking on that whatsoever. I was really glad, though, I loved Caine as a character, even if he was actively losing it throughout the series. I was also not expecting a redemption arc for him, and it was wonderful. It was so, so heartwarming to see him living alongside them, playing games, drawing, just being human. I was kind of sad when I thought he died, so I'm glad to see that he didn't actually die. "There's no coming back from this." -M 0-E #ultrakill #comingout